Arghh

I don't feel like blogging anymore . I don't know why I even bother to venture here sometimes . Probably because I know this is one place where i can say whatever I want to without the fear of being rebuked . Not that I get that alot in real life but you just have to be alert 24/7 . I don't feel comfortable anywhere . Why ?
I'm not sad neither am I happy , I'm in that inter-mediate mood which is just as bad . A certain shallowness . Somet hings are working out well others are not . People can be very hypocritical with alloooooot of attitude . People can be rude , mean , arrogant and ignorant . I'm sick of living like this ...around people I know I can never learn to be comfortable with. We're from different worlds and its not that one's better then the other , its just the difference and the contradiction . I'm resistant to change , seriously I am . It can be a quality and it can be one darn thing that has full potential of making your life miserable . i think it work both ways for me . I don't WANT to change but the pressure is simply buliding up . Either I change or I wil be stuck in the ruts ... hard choice . I love myself .