That is a buddy alert 

Now guess who this is ? MEHHH ! 

Arghh

I don't feel like blogging anymore . I don't know why I even bother to venture here sometimes . Probably because I know this is one place where i can say whatever I want to without the fear of being rebuked . Not that I get that alot in real life but you just have to be alert 24/7 . I don't feel comfortable anywhere . Why ?
I'm not sad neither am I happy , I'm in that inter-mediate mood which is just as bad . A certain shallowness . Somet hings are working out well others are not . People can be very hypocritical with alloooooot of attitude . People can be rude , mean , arrogant and ignorant . I'm sick of living like this ...around people I know I can never learn to be comfortable with. We're from different worlds and its not that one's better then the other , its just the difference and the contradiction . I'm resistant to change , seriously I am . It can be a quality and it can be one darn thing that has full potential of making your life miserable . i think it work both ways for me . I don't WANT to change but the pressure is simply buliding up . Either I change or I wil be stuck in the ruts ... hard choice . I love myself .

Robbery thats shook me inside out

sallaams
We got robbed yesterday at 1:20 pm just when I was about to go to Sidra's place . They took all my mum's jewellery and all the cash she had . I've been in a trauma since then , im in a daze . There is such a strong fear of God knows what and its always on my mind . I was the first to recieve them with the gun pointed towards my head . I seriously died . Right now I'm too disoriented and confused to write something coherent ; i just wanted to let you know . Please pray for me ... I really need them . All I want is to run away from this great country . There is no security of life , no security of honour - what more is left to protect ?

I finished reading a fantastic book ' The hidden life of Otto Frank' by Anne Lee . For those of you , who are interested in World Wars and the Nazis , I highly recommend this book . But before reading this , you should have read 'Ann Frank's Diary' . I started a new novel today again called ' Buddhist of Suburbia' , I know the title is dead boring but believe you me the book isn't . Its like all the irrelevant stuff and general events collected in the form of a book . But I wouldn't quite recommend it because the langauge is a bit offensive . Today is Friday , that means i have two whole days of no college . I intend to thoroughly enjoy this divine time by completing the novel , buying more cards for a freind and the rest is not planned . I love AOL buddy alerts . Yes , I'm insane . And so is this post .